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Drawn silence - Chapter 7: Silent nodding

Drawn silence - Chapter 7: Silent nodding

Drawn silence - Chapter 7: Silent nodding
Pairing: Kamenashi Kazuya/ Yamashita Tomohisa; Akanishi Jin/ Nishikido Ryo; Akanishi Jin/ Kamenashi Kazuya [Brothers]
Rating:  PG-13
Multi Chapter in 26 Chapters
Genre: AU, romance, angst, drama,
Disclaimer: I don’t own the boys, but the story is mine. :D
Note: English is not my native language, so I'm sorry for mistakes
Summary: Yamapi is new in town and he searches for new friends. Luckily he meets Ryo, Jin and Jin's brother Kazuya and starts to hang out with them. Everything would be perfect - even his growing feelings towards Kazuya, but the fact that Kazuya isn't able to speak makes everything more complicated. Kazuya isn't able to communicate with anyone, and no one knows why.


Pi walked down the beach and sat down on a big stone. He buried his feed into the sand and stared at the sea. Since two days he didn’t hear anything from Jin, Ryo and Kazuya. He tried to call Jin twice, but he didn’t answer his calls.

He looked at the house where they lived and saw someone opening the door and stepping out on the terrace. He saw Jin looking in his direction and saw him waving his hand, asking him to come to him.

“Hey Pi, sorry I couldn’t answer the calls during the last days, it was really stressful here”, Jin said and touched the other one’s shoulder.

“No problem, what happened? Is everything alright?”, Pi wanted to know.

“Yes, no…I don’t know…”, Jin sighed and leaned against the table. “Kazuya’s behavior during the last days let me worry.”, he added.

“What happened?”, Pi asked softly.

“He is so emotional. I don’t know how to say it, because it sounds so strange. He shows so much emotion since yesterday. It changes between anger, sadness and complete silence. He throws with things, cries half a day and gets lost in thoughts again, and I don’t reach him. I can only try to calm him down, but nothing works out. The picture he threw out of the window is now cut in thousand pieces together with some other pictures which shows our family. That’s the reason I didn’t call you.”, Jin said and rubbed his forehead. The last days made him tired, really tired and also worried. He didn’t know his brother acting like this. It was like something or someone changed him, but he couldn’t say what or why.

“I am sorry, and it’s no problem at all. Where is Ryo? Did he help you?”, Pi asked innocently. He wanted to know if the other one talked to Jin about his problems, but it seemed Jin had no idea about it. “He comes by later. He will bring something to eat. Maybe you want to stay too? I can call him, and ask him to bring something for you too”, Jin suggested and smiled when Pi agreed happily.

“Come in, I have to look at Kazuya, he was sleeping half an hour ago, but I am worried that something happens”, Jin said and let Pi entering the house. They heard a noise from upstairs and before Poi could ask he saw Jin running upstairs without looking at him. Pi followed him and saw him rushing into Kazuya’s room.

Kazuya was sitting on the floor, ripping out pieces of paper from his notepad and smashing them around in the room. He stood up and threw the pencil cases against the wall. Some tears ran above his face and he waved his hands around, so it was impossible for Jin to grab him.

“Kazuya, please calm down, please”, Jin begged and repeated it various times. His voice was desperate and broke every now and then. He tried to catch his brother, but it was nearly impossible. He stepped into the room and grasped for Kazuya’s arms. With the third try he managed it to get them, but both stumbled and fell on the floor. “Are you alright?”, Jin asked softly and touched Kazuya’s face slowly, wiping away some tears he had cried. Kazuya fought against Jin’s grip and raised his head a bit where he saw Pi standing in the door frame.

He stopped moving and just started at the boy. Jin knitted his eyebrows and looked at Pi. Pi’s heart beat faster. He didn’t know why the other one was looking at him, but he went into the room, kneeling down in front of Kazuya and Jin.

“Is everything alright?”, he asked softly and looked directly into Kazuya’s eyes. For just one moment everything was silent, till Kazuya nodded shortly. Pi couldn’t believe what he saw and looked up at Jin, who robbed around, till he knelt next to Kazuya. “You nodded, you nodded, you…”, he said and stared at his brother, who looked down on the floor, lost in his thoughts.

“Kazuya, look at me…do you feel alright?”, Jin said, but the other one didn’t react at all.

“Hello, everything alright?”, they heard Ryo from downstairs and winced because of the sudden voice.

“Yes”, Jin said and stood up to walk downstairs. He was irritated because of the happening right before, and he felt a strange feeling in him, because he wished it would have been him to whom Kazuya nodded. He fought since years to make Kazuya reacting to words and questions, and now it wasn’t him who got the first answer from him.

Pi knelt there and looked at Kazuya, who only sat there, collecting the pencils around him. “You nodded, didn’t you?”, Pi asked softly, but the other one wasn’t listening to him at all, or he didn’t want to hear his words. “Let’s go downstairs to the others”, Pi said and wanted to touch Kazuya’s head, but stopped and pulled his hand back. Kazuya stood up without looking at him and walked next to him downstairs.

“He really did it, Ryo”, Jin said and sat down on the terrace.

“Maybe we saw it wrong, maybe he didn’t nodded but struggled against your grip”, Pi tried to explain the situation. He really swore that it was a nodding, but he could imagine Jin’s feeling right in this moment. Of course he wished that Kazuya would react on his words, and not on Pi’s, so he tried to diminish the situation.

“I don’t know, Pi…it really was a nodding”, Jin said and looked at his brother on the other side. “Did you nod? Please Kazuya, give me a sign”, Jin begged and saw Kazuya rising his head, only staring at him without moving.

“Maybe you really made a mistake”, Ryo tried to calm the situation down and saw Jin jumping up, running into the house when Kazuya turned around and ran back to his room.

“Did he nod?”, Ryo asked when Pi and he were alone there.

“Can I tell you the truth, and you won’t tell him about it?”, Pi asked and looked at the boy next to him, who nodded slightly. Even though he should tell Jin about it, he wouldn’t do it.

“Yes, I think he nodded”, Pi whispered and looked at the door.

“And it wasn’t Jin to whom he nodded…”, Ryo sighed and closed his eyes when Pi agreed. “He will concentrate on his brother, till he get any attention from him, but it won’t happen”, Ryo rubbed his forehead.

“Why?”, Pi asked.

“He will try to force him, and that won’t work out. I know he only wants the best for his brother, but this way isn’t effective, it’s more the opposite of it.”, Ryo answered and smiled slightly. He knew it meant that Jin wouldn’t have any time and attention for him during the next time.

“I didn’t want to make any step like this”, Pi said and bit on his lips. He really didn’t want to interrupt in a family situation, but he felt like he stole something precious from someone else.

“It’s really not your fault. And in the end Jin will be happy that Kazuya reacted in any kind of way and to anyone, but for now he wished it would have been him”, Ryo answered and looked at Pi. “Don’t worry, Pi. But I wonder why it was you?!”, he added.

“I don’t know…maybe because I protected him some days ago?!”, Pi said out of the blue and closed his eyes when he felt Ryo staring at him. He didn’t want to tell them about the happening on university, because he didn’t want to bother anyone, but now it was too late. He looked at Ryo and told him about the boys who bullied Kazuya.

“It was the best thing not to tell us about it, especially Jin. I don’t know, I think Kazuya found an attachment figure in you. I don’t know why or how, but he seems to trust you, even though he doesn’t know you at all.”, Ryo answered and looked at the stairs where Jin was coming down.

“He is asleep now, I don’t know what’s going on with him.”, Jin said and looked at the others.

“I am sorry Jin”, Pi said and stared at him. Jin just knitted his eyebrows and looked at him. “It’s not your fault, it’s not that you are somehow connected to him”, he replied harshly and regretted his words right after he said it. Of course Pi was somehow connected to them, because they were friends, but he was always bad in holding back his anger.

“I will go now”, Pi said and walked down to the bay without looking at the others anymore. He didn’t do something wrong, but it felt like it was all his fault. He couldn’t stop thinking of Kazuya’s face when he nodded at him. It was like he wanted to tell him something, but he couldn’t say what it was.

“That wasn’t Pi’s fault and you can’t talk to him like that, Jin. He is our friend.”, Ryo said and stood up to walk back to the kitchen.

“I know…but I am angry…”, Jin answered.

“Why? Pi didn’t do anything and Kazuya seems to trust him, what doesn’t mean that you aren’t the most important person for him. You are his brother and you are always here for him, of course he loves you.”, Ryo tried to calm his boyfriend down and stepped closer to him. He knew that they would only talk about the happenings on this day, and he wished it wouldn’t be like that. He placed a soft kiss on Jin’s cheek and put his hands around his waist. Jin smiled sadly and leaned his head on Ryo’s, stroking softly above the smaller one’s back.

“Are we going out tomorrow evening?”, Jin asked out of the blue and saw Ryo looking irritated at him.

“You want to go on a date? When did we do this last time?”, Ryo answered and smiled brightly.

“I think I need some distraction from daily life, and I won’t enjoy an evening without you”, he grinned back and kissed Ryo carefully.

“Yes, let’s go to cinema and to a restaurant”, Ryo suggested and jumped up and down.

“Alright, like on our first date”, Jin replied and laughed when he saw Ryo bouncing from one foot to the other. He didn’t think that he’d be that happy about that.



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