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Drawn silence - Chapter 5: Silent listener

Drawn silence - Chapter 5: Silent listener

Drawn silence - Chapter 5: Silent listener
Pairing: Kamenashi Kazuya/ Yamashita Tomohisa; Akanishi Jin/ Nishikido Ryo; Akanishi Jin/ Kamenashi Kazuya [Brothers]
Rating:  PG-13
Multi Chapter in 26 Chapters
Genre: AU, romance, angst, drama,
Disclaimer: I don’t own the boys, but the story is mine. :D
Note: English is not my native language, so I'm sorry for mistakes
Summary: Yamapi is new in town and he searches for new friends. Luckily he meets Ryo, Jin and Jin's brother Kazuya and starts to hang out with them. Everything would be perfect - even his growing feelings towards Kazuya, but the fact that Kazuya isn't able to speak makes everything more complicated. Kazuya isn't able to communicate with anyone, and no one knows why.

Pi sat in his room and stared out of the window. It was a cold and rainy day and the color of the water mixed up with the clouds. It looked like one big gray wall in front of him. He sighed deeply and tried to concentrate on the homework he had to make for his lesson.


He remembered about the breakfast they had the day before and about Ryo, who wanted to talk with him. Kazuya was sitting on the other side of the table, staring at his plate, eating here and there a piece of bread, not looking at them when talked about various things.


Pi didn't know what he should think about him, and he had no idea how it would be to walk home with Kazuya every Thursday afternoon. It was impossible to talk with him, or better he'd not get any kind of answer from the other one. Pi closed his eyes and saw Kazuya's cold and dark eyes looking at him, and even though they were like this, he swore that he saw a warm and gentle sparkling behind the wall Kazuya built around himself.


Pi really wanted to know what happened to him, but it seemed no one knew the answer, except Kazuya, and he wouldn't give the answer.


“Tomohisa, dinner is done”, he heard his mother calling him and he stood up to walk downstairs.


“I am here”, Pi smiled at his mother and his stepfather and sat down next to them.


“How was your meeting with your friends yesterday?”, his mother asked gently and looked at her son.


“Nice”, Pi said without looking at her. He wasn't in the mood to tell her more than necessary, because he knew his mother, she'd be worried when she’d get to know about Kazuya and his illness.


“Nice? Are you able to say more than that?”, his stepfather asked and looked at him.


“No, he isn't...he never told me anything about his friends or journeys or something like that.”, his mother smiled slightly and Pi could hear the reproachful undertone in her voice, but he even wasn't in the mood to discuss such a thing in this moment.


“Right...”, Pi said and stood up.


“Don't you want to eat some more?!”, his mother said and looked at her son walking out of the room.


“No thanks, I am not that hungry”, Pi answered and walked back to his room. He closed the door and sat down next to the window again. His thoughts were spinning around and his new friends were in his head, their words, actions and faces were popping up in his mind, and on one side he felt glad that he met them, but on the other side he knew that the situation they were in was totally different from what he experienced till now.


And the worst thing was that he didn't get Kazuya's face out of his mind. It wasn't the sympathy he had for him, it was more like his dark eyes, the soft lips and his slight red cheeks were spinning around in his head. “Ridiculous”, Pi whispered to himself and rubbed his forehead. He went back to his homework and tried to concentrate on it again.



“And then we have to visit Hawaii”, Jin said and looked at Ryo next to him.

“Hawaii?! Jin, that's too expensive, we can't make such a journey.”, Ryo answered and sat up a little bit. They were still lying in the bed, the rain poured against the window and Ryo snuggled closer to the other one. It was one of the calmer days in the house, and Jin had the time to concentrate on his boyfriend, because Kazuya was still asleep, or at least he was fine, because he didn't come into their room.


“Yes, but Ryo, that's only if we'd have the money”, Jin smiled and placed a soft kiss on the other one's nose.


“And Kazuya would be in the room next to us!”, Jin said. He didn't see Ryo's eyes glancing for a moment. It was like the bubble they built up burst in between one second. They talked about a love holiday trip, and of course Jin's brother would be a part of it.

On the one side Ryo accepted it, and he really understood it, but on the other side it was stultifying for him.


“Mhm...”, he only said and closed his eyes. At least now he was alone with Jin, and he could enjoy this seconds with him together.




Kazuya heard the rain hitting against the window and he tried to close his eyes again. But every time he had the same pictures popping up in his mind, and the same words were filling his head. He stood up and started to draw various things on small papers and looked at his works from the day before. On one of his drawings he saw Ryo, Jin and Pi smiling friendly at him. It was the situation when they sat together for breakfast.


Kazuya stroked above their faces and stopped when he reached Pi’s. He closed his eyes and breathed in deeply before he rumpled the paper and threw it in the basket.


He stared at the drawing in the garbage and bit on his lips, before some small tears appeared in his eyes and he took it out again, trying to smooth it out. He put it in his map and ran his fingers above it again.


A strange feeling rose up in him, when he looked at the boys and especially when he saw Pi’s smile and his familiar and gentle eyes resting on him.



“Hey”, Pi said and walked up to the coffee shop where he saw Ryo sitting and waiting for him.


“Ah, Pi, you are here”, Ryo said nervously and rubbed his hands on his jeans. He didn’t know how he should start to talk to the other one, but he really needed someone who’d listen to him.


“Am I too late?!”, Pi asked and took a look at his watch. Of course he wasn’t, but he didn’t know how to start the conversation and he needed something to start with. 


“No, no, I was much too early. My lesson ended half an hour ago and so I walked up here, and decided to wait”, Ryo answered and smiled slightly.


“Ah, I see”, Pi answered and offered some coffee when the waitress came by.


“What do you want to talk about?”, Pi asked directly and stared at the other one.


“Ano…you know we haven’t much friends, and I really need someone to talk about my problems, and I thought maybe I can talk with you about it, even though we know each other only since one week”, Ryo blushed and bit on his lips, waiting for the other one’s reaction.


Pi felt a warm feeling rising up in him, not because he fell for the other one, but because he always longed for something like this. He wanted to have friends, who were talking to him, telling him about their problems, and with whom he could talk about his’ too. He nodded shortly before he smiled at the other one and said: “Of course you can. I will listen, but I can’t promise that I know a solution for your problems”.


“First and foremost I just want to talk about my problems, and I am happy if you are only listening to it, that would be a big relieve for me.”, Ryo answered and smiled at the other one.


“That’s not a big problem at all. I really can listen to everything”, Pi twinkled and grinned back at Ryo. “So, what do you want to tell me?”, he added and saw Ryo wincing towards him. It was one fact to ask Pi about listening, but it was much more difficult to start talking about his real problem.


“Ano…some times I feel rather insecure about Jin's feelings towards me. I know he loves me, but I am always on second place. I know Kazuya is important to him, and I know Kazuya needs his brother, and Jin would do anything for him. That's alright, and I totally understand it, but on the other side I feel kind of rejected and unloved.”, Ryo started to speak without looking at the other one.


Pi just listened and nodded here and there. He really could understand the other one's feelings, but he really had no idea what he should suggest him to do in this situation.


“It's not understandable, isn't it?!”, Ryo smiled sadly and looked up. “I feel bad, really bad, because I am jealous and sometimes I wish Kazuya wouldn't exist.... I know I shouldn't have such thoughts, but I can't stop them popping up in my mind.”, he added.


“I really understand you, I can imagine that it's hard for you”, Pi answered and smiled at Ryo.




“Yes, but I can't say what you should do, but maybe we can make one evening where I stay at your place, so Kazuya isn’t alone at home, and you two go out together”, Pi suggested and saw Ryo's eyes started to sparkle and he smiled from one ear to the other.


“Maybe it would help, yes”, he answered.


“But Ryo, you should tell Jin about your feelings, I don't know if he recognizes it”, Pi said and took a sip of his coffee. Ryo only nodded and got lost in his thoughts, he knew he would hardly have the confidence to tell his boyfriend about his problem.


“Ano, I have to pick up Kazuya in a few minutes”, Pi said after a while and smiled at Ryo.


“Ah, and my lessons starts too”, Ryo replied and stood up after they paid the bill.


“Till later Ryo, I think we will see each other today or tomorrow”, Pi smiled and wanted to turn around and stopped when he heard Ryo's voice: “Thanks for listening, Pi. And feel free to come to me, when you need to talk about something.” Ryo smiled brightly and waved his hand before he walked down the campus to his department.


Pi put his hand in his pockets and walked upstairs till he reached the room where Kazuya must have been right now. He looked up and saw him standing there, a few boys around him, circling him and hustling him and smashing his notepad out of his hands.


“Kazuya...”, Pi's heart beat faster when he ran up to them and stepped right in front of Kazuya.



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