Title: Hide and seek – Chapter 7: Letter from heaven (Final)
Pairing: Akanishi Jin/ Kamenashi Kazuya
Genre: romance, angst, friendship
Warning: ANGST!!!!!!!!; The story is NOT based on real happenings of Kat-tun!!
Disclaimer: I don’t own the boys, but the story is mine. :D
Note: English is not my native language, so I'm sorry for mistakes
Summary: Jin and Kame are again a couple, and it starts to work out quiet well, till Kame disappears, and Jin tries to find him. A journey through the last years start. Jin has to remember about their past, about their break ups, about their beloved moments, because only in remembering those he would be able to find Kame. It's a run against time, because Jin doesn't know where Kame is, or what has happened to him.
Tears ran across his cheeks, because he finally knew why Kame disappeared, he told him a month ago, but Jin didn't want to believe it, till today.
He opened the paper and started to read it carefully:
I never forgot the first day we met. I sat there in the corner of the room and I felt lost. I only knew Nakamaru, because I met him and his mother right before, and then I saw you walking up to me. I could see your friendly eyes and your smile, and there I knew the meaning of “love at the first sight”. I know you wondered why I stood up and ran away, and I knew you thought I am an arrogant ass, but I was too shy to say anything and ran away.
On the day I saw you walking out of the house with my cup in your hand I was astonished. I never thought to meet you there, and I never thought you were there because of me. There I fell in love for the second time.
The years gone by Jin, and there were so many precious times we had. I think you remembered all the days, because otherwise you wouldn't sit there reading this letter.
I know we had our first terrible break up, and you went to America to make your own experiences. I missed you ever day of your absence. Yes, we were no couple at these days, but we were still in the same band, so I could see you every day, and that made my day shining.
When you came back to Japan I hoped we could speak about the last months, but our situation became much harder and our differences became bigger. We hardly ever talked to each other, and I really know I was a stubborn kid sometimes, and I hope you can forgive me.
And then there was the day you decided to leave Kat-tun. After you ran out of the dressing room I stood up and yelled out all my pain. I smashed the chair on the floor and wanted to tell you that I hate I hate you too, but I loved you. My heart broke and I cried out the whole pain I carried in me.
I didn't want to give up, I wanted to have a second chance for us, but I knew I had to stop running after you, it was senseless, but on this evening in the bar I tried it for a last time and I got my second chance, and I was the happiest man in the whole world in this night. I still could feel your lips on my skin days after our first night and I could smell your scent in every second a day.
I thought no one could take my smile away and I enjoyed every minute with you.
Jin, I felt we became one again, and I really want to thank you for the last weeks you spent with me.
When you read this I am still gone, and please, don't cry about me. I had the best time, because of you and when I would have the chance to change anything in my past, I wouldn't do it, except one thing: I'd never break up with you.
I will always love you Jin, and I really hope you find someone new in future, someone you can love like I love you.
I think I wouldn't have been able to let go of my life, when we were still in a fight, but I knew that this would happen sooner or later and I fought because I wanted to be with you, even if I got only a short time of luck before my life ended.
I will always keep you in my heart; I hope you have a place for me in yours,
In deepest love,