Title: Evanescence (Orthros no inu multi chapter) Chapter 3
Pairing: Nishikido Ryo/ Takizawa Hideaki aka Aoi Ryosuke/ Ryuzaki Shinji
Genre: romance, friendship, AU
Disclaimer: I don’t own the boys, but the story is mine. :D - everything is pure fiction!
Note: English is not my native language, so I'm sorry for mistakes
Warning: SPOILER!! Do not read if you don't know the drama and you want to watch it!!!!
Summary: Shinji is searching for Ryosuke. He hopes to find him before he'd forget about him.
(Sorry for the short summary, but I can't reveal any details here, because I don't want to spoiler anyone. :))
Note 2: It's a early birthday present for lilly0. I promised her to start the story one week before her birthday. :) I hope you'll like it. ♥♥
Shinji sat there for more than three hours, but he couldn’t see his brother anywhere around. He tried to keep the overview in between all the children and their parents around the school building. He didn’t even know if he was right here, because he didn’t ask if Ryosuke was working here. He twisted the small talisman in his hands. At least it was a hint that his brother must have been somewhere around.
“Sorry, I have a question.” Ryuzaki heard himself saying. “Do you know a guy named Aoi Ryosuke?” The woman stared at him, visibly thinking about his question. “As far as I know he is a teacher. But he isn’t here anymore. He was, but since two terms he is on the other side of the town. He educates one of my daughters, that’s why I know him.”
“Really? Can you do me a favor?” Shinji waited for her reaction before he continued. “Can you or your daughter give him this one. Just tell him…tell him nothing. Just give it to him.” He handed her the small talisman he found some hours ago. The woman nodded and promised to do what he asked her for.
From one second to the other Shinji wasn’t sure if he was able to face the other one. It was like a small thing in him turned. He knew that this action wouldn’t bring him closer to his brother, but maybe it was a step forward. Maybe Ryosuke would connect the item with him, even though he just found it on street and returned it to its owner.
Back in his hotel room he lied down to find some rest. Sleeping was almost impossible for him right now, but he had to. And again it was like so often – he woke up and another piece was gone. He dialed the number on his phone, waiting till Yuui answered it. “He is my brother, right? And he exists? How does he look like?”
Yuui sighed loudly. “Ye she is, and yes, he really exists. He isn’t only a phantom of your mind. He is good looking, that’s what you told me. He is black haired, and his smile can kill people. That’s also what you told me. Aoi Ryosuke – that’s his name. He is teacher, and he had the devil’s hand till you broke the curse and both of you could start a new life.”
Shinji listened closely to the other one’s words. Wasn’t it a strange story? “Why did we break the curse? To me it seems more like my current life is the cursed one. Why do I want to find him that badly? Where we close to each other?”
Again he heard Yuui sighing deeply. “Yes and no. You are brothers; somehow you belong to each other. But there was one thing before your paths divided – a part you don’t talk about anymore. I can’t tell you what it was, because you never told me about it. You just said that you want to forget this. You didn’t know about your fading memory back then, so I think you would have told me if you would have known about it before.”
“I wanted to forget about something concerning me and my brother? That’s strange, because I try to hold on everything I can remember. I also started writing down some things before I forget them, but when I reread them again, it’s like a stranger wrote them and not me. I can’t connect them to my life anymore.” Shinji rubbed his face; the desperation was slowly overwhelming him. And now he got to know that there was something he wanted to forget about? What could it be? Nothing could have been that bad that he wanted to erase it. It was his brother after all. No matter how close they were in past. “Thanks my friend. You helped me again.”
“No problem – just call me again, okay? I don’t want to worry that much about you.”
“I promise.” Shinji hung up the phone, leaning against the chair he was sitting in. His rubbed his temples, trying again to remember about the other one and the situations they experienced together. He gave away the talisman, he knew where the other one was, but he decided to wait. Maybe the woman would give it to Ryosuke and maybe he’d start searching for him too. He shook his head because of these thoughts. He knew it was ridiculous, and he couldn’t hope for it, but a small jump in his belly showed him that the hope was still there.
What was the thing he wanted to forget about? Did he do something to his brother? Something terrible? Was it something hurtful? No matter how hard he tried to remember – nothing happened.
Aoi walked down the corridor to his class where he breathed in for some times before he walked in. He knew that his students would stare at him because of the wounds in his face, and actually he wasn’t interested in explaining anything, especially not to his students.
Everyone stood up when he opened the door and he could feel the eyes resting on him and everyone had just one question. “I won’t tell you. Forget it.” Aoi walked to his table, placing his stuff for the lesson there. For his surprise his students didn’t ask any further and his fear of being punished with hundreds of questions didn’t become true.
He packed his stuff after the lesson when a girl from the last row came up to him. “Sorry Sensei. My mother asked me to give you something.” He saw his talisman in the girl’s hand and felt his stomach twitching. “Where did you get that from?”
“I don’t know. My mum just told me to give it back to you. She said it’s yours.” The girl smiled slightly before she turned around to leave the room.
It was definitely his, but why did the woman know that this was his talisman. There wasn’t his name on it – she couldn’t know it. And as far as he knew none of his students knew about this item. Could that mean that…no, it couldn’t be Shinji who was searching for him.
He looked at the little item in his hands, trying to remember about its meaning. It’s the bond between him and his brother, the connection to their childhood. Ryuzaki Shinji…he tried to remember about him, tried to face him again, but the only thing he saw was blurred and foggy. And also the total meaning of everything faded away. He started to become a single child again. A child without past, without family, without brother.
But even though he’d forget about everything, he wouldn’t forget about the last time together with the other one, the last evening they were on the same place – he’d never forget about it, no matter what would happen in the future.
He wondered if Shinji felt same. If he was also forgetting about him, or if he maybe was already erased from his mind. But on the other side he got that talisman back, the thing which connected him with his brother, and no one else than him would have been able to give it back to him.
Was Ryuzaki watching him? Maybe it was his wish to make Ryosuke forget about them. In the end it was also him who already knew about them being brothers. He knew that they were connected – so maybe he wanted to make him forget about it now.
He had to fight against it – he didn’t want to forget Shinji, no matter what he did in past and how he treated him. He thought about a reason why they started forgetting about everything – but there was no logical reason for him in it. Why wanted someone that they forgot about each other? Was it because they actually belonged to different sides?
God and devil.
Good and bad.
Black and white.
Shinji and Ryosuke.
Was it like that? Were they still like hell and heaven, like god and devil? Should they go separate ways because of that? Ryosuke sighed when he walked out of the building, his thoughts far away. He didn’t even see the shadow right behind him when he walked down the street.