Title: Drawn silence - Chapter 25: Silent honesty
Pairing: Kamenashi Kazuya/ Yamashita Tomohisa; Akanishi Jin/ Nishikido Ryo; Akanishi Jin/ Kamenashi Kazuya [Brothers]
Multi Chapter in 26 Chapters
Genre: AU, romance, angst, drama,
Disclaimer: I don’t own the boys, but the story is mine. :D
Note: English is not my native language, so I'm sorry for mistakes
Summary: Yamapi is new in town and he searches for new friends. Luckily he meets Ryo, Jin and Jin's brother Kazuya and starts to hang out with them. Everything would be perfect - even his growing feelings towards Kazuya, but the fact that Kazuya isn't able to speak makes everything more complicated. Kazuya isn't able to communicate with anyone, and no one knows why.
„Kazuya, Kazuya“, he heard a soft voice calling his name and he opened his eyes. His breathe was fast and he felt his hands were shivering. “Is everything alright, you yelled in your dream”, Pi said softly and stared at the other one.
Kazuya looked around in the room and remembered where he was. He was with Pi in the hospital and he slept in the bed with him. “No”, he whispered and grasped the blanket next to him.
“No?”, Pi repeated and sat up a bit so Kazuya was able to lean against him.
“I dreamed”, Kazuya said shortly and thought of his next words. He wasn’t used to speak anymore and he didn’t know if he was ready to talk about what happened to him. But he knew that he’d only speak with Pi about his past.
“The nightmare again?”, Pi said and saw Kazuya nodding shortly and biting on his lips. “What is it about?”, Pi asked carefully. He didn’t know if he’d get an answer, but maybe Kazuya was able to talk about his fear, and maybe Pi could give him the hold he needed.
“I am afraid you hate me, when I am telling you about it”, Kazuya said and breathed in deeply. It wasn’t a lie at all. Next to the fact that he wasn’t able to speak about it, he was afraid that Pi would hate him for what he did in past, because he hated himself for his acting. Speaking was like something new for Kazuya and so his voice broke between the words he used. He knew he’d have a hard way back to normal life, and he couldn’t explain why he broke out right in this moment, but it was like Pi hit a point in his body, which made every barrier melting away. It was something in him, which Jin never reached, even though he loved his brother to death. Some facts can’t be given by the family, therefore he needed someone else than Jin and also Ryo, because Ryo was part of his family, and not only a friend for him.
“How can I hate you?”, Pi said and stroked above the other one’s face. He saw Kazuya breathing in deeply before he started to speak.
“I killed my parents”, he sighed and tears were running down his cheeks. Pi didn’t know what he should say, because he didn’t count with such a message.
“Why?”, he asked and still held the other one in his arms.
“Some guys forced me to do it, otherwise they would have killed my brother too and my parents wanted me to do it. I don’t know why…I was a child … I am the real culprit …”, Kazuya started to speak fast and his thoughts were spinning around and his voice was breaking with every word he said. Too long was this happening lying on his soul like the sword above Damocles, and he didn’t dare to even think of it on days. Only during nights he couldn’t distract from the nightmare which was right after him.
“And you stopped talking on this day?”, Pi asked further.
“Yes, but I didn’t wanted to. I just wasn’t able to say anything. No matter how much I tried it, I couldn’t do it.”, Kazuya sobbed and looked at the other one, who looked at him with gentle eyes.
“Aren’t you mad?”, Kazuya added.
“Why should I? I am with you Kazu. The things which happened to you are terrible and cruel, and I don’t think that anyone has the right to be mad with you. But please search for some help. Not because of me or anyone else, but because of yourself. You will feel better, really. And I promise to be there every time you need me”, Pi smiled slightly even though he couldn’t believe what his boyfriend told him right now.
Kazuya only nodded and the tears ran down his face. Pi was the first person he told about what happened years ago, and somehow he felt relieved after speaking about it. “Pi, can you please do not tell Jin about it? I think he’d be more overprotected when he gets to know about this, and on the other side, I don’t want to bother him, or making him feeling sad about it.”, Kazuya said and saw Pi nodding at him. “As you wish, I won’t tell anyone about it. Your secret is save.”, Pi answered and kissed Kazuya slightly before he pushed him down to him and snoozed away after some moments.
Kazuya closed his eyes and it was like a burden was taken from him and when he fell asleep he dreamed about him and Pi for the first time. And he saw Jin and Ryo in his dreams, and everything seemed to be alright, and no nightmare was after him during the rest of the night.
“Hey, hey, Pi. You can go home today”, Jin said and walked into the room with a bright smile on his face. He saw Pi and Kazuya lying in the bed, glancing at him.
“How late is it, Jin?”, Pi asked and looked at the clock next to him. “Are you nuts? It’s half past 6am. What are you doing here?”, Pi yelled and saw Kazuya snorting next to him, pushing the blanket above his head.
“I was up early in the morning. Ryo and I went to bed quite early yesterday, so I was awake at 5am and thought of visiting you now”, Jin said amused and sat down on the other side of the room.
“Half past 6am, Jin…half past 6am…”, Pi grumbled and turned around to sat up in his bed. Every move hurt him, not only because of the accident, but the night in such an uncomfortable bed together with a second person was a real bad idea. “And I can’t go home before the doctor was here”, Pi growled and looked at Kazuya, who slept there with a small smile on his face.
“You did it last night?”, Jin asked out of the blue and grinned at Pi.
“Are you nuts, Jin? This is a hospital, and this bed isn’t made for…such things”, Pi rolled his eyes and stared at Jin on the other side.
“Kazuya, stand up, the doctor is coming in a few minutes”, Pi said softly and stared at Jin, who got the hint and left the room for some minutes.
Kazuya whined next to him and turned around to snuggle up to him, but Pi just poked his hips slightly and tickled him here and there.
“Hey!”, Kazuya yelled out and opened his eyes.
“Oh, thanks god, you are able to speak, and it wasn’t only my imagination”, Pi laughed and saw Kazuya twinkling at him.
“Baka”, he said and rubbed his eyes. He never thought that talking would be such a relieve for him.
“Oh, and thanks god, now you’re able to call me various names”, Pi grinned brightly and kissed the other one’s nose and bit in it playfully.
“Ouch”, Kazuya answered and sat up in the bed.
“And are you able to give more than one-word answers?!”, Pi smirked and saw Kazuya pricking out his tongue. “It seems not…”, Pi replied and bent down to kiss him forcefully. “At least therefore we don’t need any words, don’t we?”, Pi added and sank into the dark eyes of the other one, and got lost somewhere in there. He didn’t know when it happened that he totally lost his heart to this boy, but it must have been when he saw him for the first time.
Kazuya stood up and walked to the bathroom before he sat down next to Pi’s bed. Jin came back to the room and smiled brightly at Pi and his brother. “I asked the doctor to come along now, so maybe you can go home in one hour”, he said and winced when he heard the door.
“Good morning, Yamashita-san. I am your doctor, Matsumoto”, the doctor smiled and walked up to Yamapi. “How are you today?”, he added.
“I feel fine, just a little tired, but fine”, Pi answered and nodded shortly.
“As I heard you live with Jin?”, the doctor said and looked at Jin next to him before he turned around to Pi again. Pi knitted his eyebrows and agreed when he saw Jin nodding behind him, telling him to say yes.
“Then I’d say you can go home. Jin will take care of you when you need something.”, the doctor said and took a closer look to the papers. “Yes, it should be alright to let you go”, he said again and signed the papers.
Half an hour later all three of them sat in the car to their home. “And I shall stay at your place during the next time?”, Pi asked and looked at Jin and Kazuya.
“Yes, your parents aren’t at home, and we won’t let you alone at home, Maybe you need some care”, Jin smiled and twinkled at Kazuya.
“Ah, there is Ryo-chan. He made the breakfast for us”, Jin said and pointed at the small figure in front of them.
A/N: So, only one chapter left. Gosh, I will miss my own story ^^. But at least I have another PiKame ongoing now, so I will overcome my sadness *laughs* I know the most of you wait for the JinKame talk here, but it will come in the last chapter. ^_^ I am off to work now, wish me luck that I am not a snow man afterwards *laughs*