yukitsubute (yukitsubute) wrote,
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goodbye

Hello my friends!
It's been a while since I was online here, and maybe you are wondering where I am. So here is my explanation for what's happening in my life.

I want to take a break from fandom, and I want to cut my fandom time completely for now. I realized that this thing here took me so much time that I forgot how to live a real life. I was too addicted to this stuff, and every talk with friends, almost every freetime I was spending on fandom. It's not that I didn't enjoy it, but it's way too much. I forgot how many hobbies I had before fandom, and since I am working and I find new friends, I got to know how nice it feels to go out more often.

I really got to know a lot of nice people here, and I found real good friends, and I hope we can stay in contact, but I won't be online on Lj anymore. I don't know if I will come back some day, maybe I will, because I still like J-pop, but I won't be a fangirl like I was during the last years anymore. Lj and everything around JE fandom pulled me in a world, which doesn't exist. It was a nice flee from problems and real life issues, it was a nice thing to stop thinking about real problems, but I need to face some not so nice facts of my life, otherwise I will never manage it to get back to a normal life.

When I realized how  much time fandom took me, I couldn't believe it. All the talks with friends about JE, all the evenings with concerts, the music I listened to, checking Lj, writing, reading etc. everything contained fandom, and that was almost the whole freetime I spent with it. I remembered the hobbies and interests I had before JE, and I was shocked. I cut off everything else from my life. I realized that I lost a lot of friends, because I didn't call them or met with them.

So with that I will say goodbye from here, maybe I am coming back, but I can't and don't want to promise it. I will check some dorama things from time to time, because it's one of the few things I can imagine to come back for, and for some new concert releases, but I won't be active anymore. (It's my opinion for now, and maybe it will change, but for now I can't imagine it) And for now I am even not online anymore. As I said, fandom is no part of my life right now, and it will be like this till I have the feeling that it starts being a normal hobby again, and no obsession.

If you want to stay in contact, you can always write me a mail at yukitsubute@gmail.com. As I said, I cut off Lj and fandom for some time, but I don't want to cut off all the nice people I met here.

I wish you all the best, and take care of you, and don't get lost in this internet world!!

Yuki
Tags: *my life
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